all that is gold does not glitter,

not all those who wander are lost;

the old that is strong does not wither,

deep roots are not reached by the frost.


from the ashes a fire shall be woken,

a light from the shadows shall spring;


renewed shall be the blade that was broken,

the crownless again shall be king.

Thursday, May 24, 2012


for my class.
                After being around one group of people for most of the time in the last 3 years, I couldn't help but to become incredibly attached to you guys. Love is to want another's good, and I think love is pretty contagious in the class, even though its often subconscious. This love is shown pretty clearly to me through the escalation of happiness when Cooper won a MT award after acting in jeans and a t-shirt, or when Megan shines in her singing and drama roles and you can't help but to feel incredibly proud of her. When Davin finally got around to dunking and our happiness and excitement overflowed. Our frustration when Riley didn't get the ROTC scholarship because we all know what an incredible person he is. These are just a few examples, but I could come up with more. While we do love each other more than we know I think, I don't deny the presence of disagreement and argument in our class. But one time, Mr. Miller said something to me in his office..."It's a strange dynamic to say the least...they fight like brothers and sisters, yet they are always there to defend one another when something comes up." It really stuck. I had been thinking about this a lot lately and over the years have collected a lot of memories that mean more than I can say with every single person. Graduation is ...tomorrow, and time is slipping right through my fingers. I am completely ready to graduate and get out of school, but there are some things that just have to be remembered before moving onto other things.
                With Ben, I laugh out loud thinking about things we say or do...he showed me how to really throw a football, we had insane hotel adventures in London, we have had countless study hall laughs, thrown lots of stuff around, he encouraged me with Davin more than anyone else when i started basketball for the first time, and he has given me invaluable advice and plenty of extremely meaningful pep-talks. Megan has licked me, come with me to the dentist office in the name of getting work done on a project, danced a crazy Prince of Egypt dance in Mr. wilson's room with me, made a bus cake with me, cried with me, and pulled all-nighters with me. Madi and I bought ate a whole pizza & breadsticks for lunch. I have given her a ..few..tattoos, we stayed up till two in the morning one time, talking about EVERYTHING in her hot-tub, and played volleyball and basketball together. In my mind, Riley is the ideal cowboy. He has also advised me several times in the following fashion: "What if you marry him someday Meghan? Would you still say that?", we have played bullies in a music video together, we broke a light with a volleyball, and had intense pillow and pen wars. I have teased Heather more than I should have probably :) and tried to scare her, I have tried to be smarter than Heather. I have creeped on her, and she has made me laugh very, very hard. Libby has done crazy make-up in sephora with me. We snuck out in the snow one day and failed at attacking a boy-army in the snow...we tried to be stealthy. We've done sidewalk chalk, laid in curtains and eaten a lot of oreos at our brothers' JH bball game. Ok maybe I ate most of the oreos. :) I've gotten mad at coop, and he's gotten mad at me. We've said sorry to eachother a lot :) we've taken a webcam picture with Mr. Rallens, we have filmed insane music videos and video edited together. He has mimicked me endlessly, scared me really, really bad, gone to art in park with me, and we've had community service adventures. Hannah has put me in headlocks that sometimes really really hurt! She has sung the National Anthem with me, and we have also played basketball and volleyball together. We've done lots of hair and braiding, and she's helped me learn how to box-out :) I have picked Kade up off the side of the road. We've played in duet competitions, and called eachother slobs. He has given me countless advice on a LOT of different things, and is very wise. I will miss him telling me "that's not a word." Katy was my first friend at the school. She brought me movies and books and chocolate when i had pneumonia, she's cried her eyes our next to me while watching Titanic, went on huge junk food rampages with me, drowned our sorrows in salt and vinegar chips our first (my only ;)) year of Mock Trial. I have been co-dance DJ with Davin, and he's been my pen target practice. He's given me the biggest and funnest bruise i ever acquired, he's tipped my chair countless times, we have *also* had big pillow fights. He has white-washed me, and has been a friend that I needed. Ruth and I have been bored together, we have watched tons of wacky movies together, we taken spontaneous bike rides, studied for innumerable tests, she's cared for me when i don't deserve it, and made me laugh like crazy. Laura has competed with me, always been happy and cheerful around me...she's given me science and math help, and puts others above herself.
                Tell me how I am supposed to move on with my life without all of these wonderful, and incredibly influential people around me? All i can say is that I love and will always love you guys more than I can say. Thank you for everything.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

a distraction: pink trees and happy faces

some things are hard. but spring makes heavy hearts light and puts a smile on my face :) 









Wednesday, March 21, 2012

non-Keane hopes & fears.

sometimes i imagine you in the future. 
your face is light, and the edges are softened with kindness and understanding. 
it's like a beautiful dream that shows everything i wanted for you all along. 
you look back and see how much you missed and how many beautiful things wizzed by,
 and see everything in a new and astounding way. 
i don't just unconditionally love you anymore, now...
i truly and completely like you for everything you've become.
  i pray everyday that this fragment of an image
 that haunts my hopes and fears 
will become
 completely 
real.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

troubled...open the eyes of my heart Lord, I want to see You.

i realized that tonight was my last chance to save my 1-post-per-month-habit. soo i'll write. 


do you know that feeling where you feel self-conscious about everything you do? thats how i feel, i guess. it is one of the dumbest fears in the world, to be afraid of what other people think of you, so i am somewhat ashamed to feel this way.
   first of all, what do the thoughts of man matter? when we subject ourselves to the way of caring what people think of us, and want to continually please them, we are in a way making them a god. I don't believe that we should just throw everything out and say "who cares what anyone thinks, i am who i am and i'm ok with me." it is necessary that we are conscious of how we appear to others because as Christians we represent Christ and who He is to the world. But this is very different than being overly concerned with what others think of believe to be true of you. If we are seeking our Lord's approval of how we live, and reveling in the life He sets before us to live with our eyes on Him....what have we to fear? prayer and wise counsel are what should be payed attention to, not what other people think. "The Lord is on my side, I will not fear...what can man do to me?" [Ps. 118:6] 
Praying that God will show me what to do. it is easy to say all of these things, harder to do. pray for me if you think of it :) thanks.

Monday, January 9, 2012

foggy blubber aka my thoughts.

I'm just laying on my bed listening to Fernando Ortega. Had a basketball game earlier and lost, and now it feels good to just lay here and hear uplifting music that makes me more thankful for and in Christ. I shouldn't be writing a blog post, hahaha...I should be writing essays. Oh well..............
  Right now I feel like clearness is shown to me through the fog. In some ways I feel like I have far too many decisions to make, and when I think too hard about it I start to get stressed out. But I also feel that maybe God is pointing me to exactly what my heart needs. If I stop trying to see the good in situations inside my little life, I get really not okay. Really down. And just anxious. But contrasting the good and bad in my life makes me feel so, so wonderful.
 I think about the people who aren't kind, who are hard for me to deal with, and make me frustrated and contrast them with the selfless friends I have who bring me so, so much joy and care so much for me when I don't deserve it. This makes me sooo happy. There are some people in my life right now that I just don't know what I would do without, and friends that i need as brothers and sisters to be there for me and that God is calling me and showing me to love.
   I think about colleges and where I'm supposed to go, what I'm supposed to do...how I want to get married someday, have kids, love people, while still fitting in the studies that I believe God is setting before me. It's kind of hard. But then i realize how much my parents care and how much God is doing RIGHT NOW. It seems clearer that I just have to get the applications in, and hey, He will point the way He wants me to go. Even though I feel like it sometimes, i'm not alone. not alone at all.
   I think about my family and the longer I am with them and the older I have become, the more i realize how much I need them. I don't think I would know who I was without these people. That kind of scares me in the idea of going away.
  in some ways i feel a lot of stress right now, in basketball, homework, piano, issues that my friends are going through, people, grades, college and scholarships, setting up my future.
but then God starts showing me all the beautiful parts of my problems. i think God is teaching me peace. and i can't help but smile.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

insert happy smug delighted content smile here

christmas was: beautiful. 
break is: refreshing. 
next year will be: wonderful.
god will always be here for me: no matter what. 
how relieving:)

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Purpose

Hmmm. I am getting distracted by things that don't really matter. not good. you know, just people doing those little things that you really wish they wouldn't do, what that one girl said to you, how stupid and weak you felt in a sports practice, jokes that aren't actually that funny. Yeah, yeah, all these things and so many more....so silly. such a teenager.

TIME TO RID THE MIND OF ALL THESE DISTRACTIONS!
time to soak in all the wonderful things.
liiiiiiiiike...
my little siblings who are just so darling, hilarious, kind, insane, beautiful
sleeeeep
non junk food! ....and junk food
the bible.
playing worship music almost every sunday
learning a beethoven sonate!
good & wholesome talks with friends i respect & love.
loving on all my sophomore little sisters:)
teaching talented and blessed students
my future. because yes. i have one. and i am NOT planless.

whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.
ah that is philippians 4:8. inspiration for the week. the month....forever..................

i am thankful for all the important things God has put in my life and praying that i am always living purposefully and focusing on things that DO matter.


hey here's someone who is SO important to me...i pray for her e'ry day! love my sweet raeanne and cannot WAIT for her to come home.